Never really knew that you can dance like this

'Cos I've Been Afraid Of Changin'
3:57pm
Music: Di Na Natuto - Sound (from Kami nAPO Muna, APO Hiking Society Tribute album)

Ya, I know. My title is part of the song, "Landslide."

Landslide that can swallow you, me and the rest of the community. Several feet above us will turn darker as this comes closer to our skin. We might survive. But from the headlines, chances are little.

Spin when tumbling down. If I puke, I might as well take it in to save me from starving.

How I placed a few things at my center only disheartened me. They are not worth that place. Intriguing how I became vulnerable to take 'em and risk my own soul. But my soiled feet are as heavy as my sored hands. My defenses could've been conquered by both my strength and weakness - you...

I miss the days when throwing a dirty finger to answer a friend's joke was still cool. And that cursing is like saying a grace before meal. Sweet at the same time bitter. Bittersweet, eh?

I am so used to it. I do not want to change even a single piece of a broken heart. Let them be. To heal and to scar. To rot and to die.

More than this, I am afraid to lose a nightmare of you. Haunting me in the depth of my memory, in the silence of my sleep, in the heart of my worry-infested ocean. Without your pathetic attempt to guide me somewhere away from my most loved place, I must've been exactly there dipping my feet in a cold, flowing river. Still, I chose to be ruined by you because you make everything complete by showing me what a big mistake I am to be kept. But I did not request for it nor did I try to catch your eye. You came near and nearer until I looked like an orphaned puppy. (Or was I a gold coin that time?)

You never let me see the other side even before the first wave of landslide hit me. What I was standing at became what is over me. And that first had its second and its third until it has the habit hitting me. Hit after hit. I am happy that walking is not the only talent I learned from you.

But again, I need to remind myself that you make me strong and weak.

posted by Arn at 4:48 PM

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Fast Facts Name: Arnold Homebase: Bulacan, Philippines Birthday: Oct 08 Star Sign: Libra Height: 5'7" Weight: ~~115~~ 107.8 lbs as per APE last March 2006 Interests: music, poetry, tv, people, twins, photographs, letters, sky, sunset, outdoors, night, sea, fish crackers, pancit, ice cream, spicy foods, dark chocolate, conversations, love, hate, transition, sensuality, buhay-buhay lalo na ng mga taong malalapit sakin Defense Mechanism: shy smile Current Location: Makati, also consider California as the other. :p See my complete profile Tick Tock Says the Clock Manila Pacific Mountain Central Eastern Kids Say The Darnest Things "Maybe some of you would be deceived by first impression that Arnold is quiet... expect him to crack jokes, mischiefs, teases and pranks even in the most serious situations..." - John, college classmate & tropa "...naku, napaka-cheerful nyan, minsan bigla na lang tumatawa mag-isa nya yan... - Kookai, college classmate & tropa "... a friend who'll stay by your side through thick and thin..." - Bernard, friend "...At first sight, kala ko mayabang siya... di naman pala... Tahimik siya pero tingin ko front lang yun eh..." - Andrea, fellow LPMB poster "...eto ang partner ko sa pang-aasar kay Kirby...hilig sa music is one that matched us...I always count on him whenever I have problems in my life..." - Roy, high schoolmate & 4th yr HS seatmate "charming and mabait plagi ngang nakangiti eh and minsan di kumakain kc bka magtoooot........... hehe!!!!" - Prezy, college classmate & tropa "Arnold looks mysterious... I can say he loves people, what with all those funny, encouraging, sometimes nonsense posts in PEx, hehe. I can say he's responsible at matiyaga..." - Jaja, fellow Thomasian PExer "...kunsintidor yan lalo na sa luvlife ko..." - Xixa, schoolmate from elem-college, seatmate in college ""... very approachable and willing to help you out... very timid and quiet..." - Joanne, office batchmate/former teammate "...makita ka lang nyang nakatingin sa kanya, ngingiti na yan, yung ngiti pa nya e parang nakakaloko..." - Bunny, college schoolmate "What I like about this guy is the way he smiles. Naks! Well, la lang. It's so natural and kinda warm..." - Anne, office batchmate/former teammate "... he's full of stories to tell... brimming with lots of energy pag nagkwento... may facial expression pa yan pag nagsasalita..." - Toti, schoolmate (sometimes classmate) from elementary til college "... he seems shy at first, but when you get to talk with him, you'll find that he's thoughtful, well-mannered and not at all different..." - Liza, office teammate "... magmumulat sayo sa kamunduhan...hehehe joke lang... di daw makabasag-pinggan, ayon yun sa kanya, sabi pa nya all bark no bite, pano ka makakapangagat, eh di ba may busal ka lolz.. arn arn is friendly, kalog and makulit..." - Cy, PEx tropa "... alam ko close kami and there are things na nasasabi ko sa kanya and not to other guys... super bait na friend, galing sumayaw ng LA walk hehehe!.. at first aakalain mo na quiet pero nasa loob ang kulo nyan..." - Roselyn, college tropa "... pareho kaming mahilig sa poetry... sobrang mabait, sobrang friendly at down to earth..." - Je, office batchmate "Dance revo tayo!" - Jase, college tropa "May 6-pack ka pa rin ba? Bigyan mo naman kami ng tips..." - Chiela, college tropa "Silent laugter..." - Noel, elementary and college classmate "... very positive ang outlook nya in life..." - Liz, friend "... a warm smile :) sya ang ngiti na tinubuan ng mukha. hehehe..." - Goldi, office teammate "... quite a shy guy but if you know how to trigger him, man, he got lots to tell... if he likes you, he'll even write you trivial notes but definitely sweet! He's romantic even if he tries to hide it. He could be a bit sensitive so that be a bit careful..." - Margaux, college tropa, dance troupe audition partner "Ang sakiting PExer..." - Kuya Hans, fellow Thomasian PExer "Good luck sa sari-saring pakulo... ang ganda ng pix mo talaga... kahit di tayo masyadong close, mabait ka." - CJ, college classmate "Thanks really for the smiles..." - AC, college tropa "...tahimik yan pero always naka-smile..." - Ticx, office batchmate "Constans! Good luck, boy! Huwag iiyak." - Doc Ed, Botany's department head "Yahoo! Friends forever tayo ha?! Txt txt na lang. Wag kalimutan iba't-ibang yoga =) Baguio City ba?.." - JC, college classmate/friend "...sobrang loko lang sa lahat ng bagay saka ang daming alam lalo na sa @!#$%... pero mukha namamang mapapagkatiwalaan..." - Mayk, PEx tropa "dimples anyone??? dancing king! ye! smile! smile! smile! and lot of smiles...Mami-miss kita, promise! Gimik tayo one time... keep that grooving butt & those pairs of shoes dancing! miss u! " - Alex, college tropa "Kainis. Last day na... kita-kits sa party. Party fanatic ka talaga..." - Snowy, college classmate "Once upon a time...(drama) Musta na? Long time no talk na kasi... miss ko na nga kwento mo na may sense...hehehe" - Ronald, college tropa "Arnold comes off as the shy, devious type. Sort of like a scheming villain ready to unleash his evil upon you when you least expect...hahaha..." - Al, former teammate "... a person who lavishes on his day offs... very friendly siya and most of the time parang laging excited about something..." - Micth, fellow Thomasian PExer "I'll miss your smiling face..." - Haydz, college classmate/friend "Barnold, ikaw talaga... marami ka pang kakaining bigas... follow your dreams... Keep in touch hanggang tumanda tayo, ha!" - Joms, college tropa "...typical boy next door na di pansinin..." - Joebs, office batchmate By The Shore My LSS is Killing meLSS: First of Summer - UrbanDu... It's Red4:42pmMusic: Some Chinese music from radio... Updating3:37pmMy hair is much shorter now. I actua... Hair (&) Pie (This should be wholesome)4:10pmMusic... Cake 07.29 FriMusic: Sitting Down Here - Lene Marl... (Un)happy Feet6:39pmMy feet stink today. So, I'm s... So Chill...9pmMusic: Manila - Amber... reads my sl... 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Javascript Kit My Imager Photo Bucket Saybox StatCounter Village Photos Hit Me people brought their booties over here Copyright Â© Arnold 2004 All Rights Reserved	Thursday, September 07, 2006 'Cos I've Been Afraid Of Changin' 3:57pm Music: Di Na Natuto - Sound (from Kami nAPO Muna, APO Hiking Society Tribute album) Ya, I know. My title is part of the song, "Landslide." Landslide that can swallow you, me and the rest of the community. Several feet above us will turn darker as this comes closer to our skin. We might survive. But from the headlines, chances are little. Spin when tumbling down. If I puke, I might as well take it in to save me from starving. How I placed a few things at my center only disheartened me. They are not worth that place. Intriguing how I became vulnerable to take 'em and risk my own soul. But my soiled feet are as heavy as my sored hands. My defenses could've been conquered by both my strength and weakness - you... I miss the days when throwing a dirty finger to answer a friend's joke was still cool. And that cursing is like saying a grace before meal. Sweet at the same time bitter. Bittersweet, eh? I am so used to it. I do not want to change even a single piece of a broken heart. Let them be. To heal and to scar. To rot and to die. More than this, I am afraid to lose a nightmare of you. Haunting me in the depth of my memory, in the silence of my sleep, in the heart of my worry-infested ocean. Without your pathetic attempt to guide me somewhere away from my most loved place, I must've been exactly there dipping my feet in a cold, flowing river. Still, I chose to be ruined by you because you make everything complete by showing me what a big mistake I am to be kept. But I did not request for it nor did I try to catch your eye. You came near and nearer until I looked like an orphaned puppy. (Or was I a gold coin that time?) You never let me see the other side even before the first wave of landslide hit me. What I was standing at became what is over me. And that first had its second and its third until it has the habit hitting me. Hit after hit. I am happy that walking is not the only talent I learned from you. But again, I need to remind myself that you make me strong and weak. posted by Arn at 4:48 PM \| << Home